September 24, 2014

  • Nachos are da bomb

    I just had nachos for breakfast.   Nutritional value - zero.   Personal satisfaction value - ten.   I'd call that a win.

    I made a discovery about myself a few months ago.   Well actually my kids pointed it out, and I was enlightened.    I am an introvert.   I did not know that because I am not shy.  But I do love being alone.   Anyway, according to the internet I am a classic introvert.   What does that mean to me now?  Not much but now I'm aware of why I love peace and quiet and ME time so much.

    Poor pup is still wearing his cone.   His breed are known as 'leaners' meaning they love to lean on people.   You know, you see them sitting up, tail wagging, leaning on the leg of their person?  Well he keeps trying to lean on me with that damn cone and a few times he's come in too quickly on just the wrong angle and that cone jams into my calf hard.   It actually really hurts!  Between that and him banging into EVERYthing in our house as he lumbers along, both him and I can hardly wait for the cone to be off.  I'm also really glad he's neutered now.   He was starting to try to hump everything - even the air.  It was embarrassing and kind of gross!  Poor little teenaged boy - puberty hit him with a brick.

    I'm excited because for the first time in decades, yes decades,  I get to spend some time doing things I've always fantasized about.   I had a lot of fun raising the kids, but it was busy and about them.  And I did NOT manage my free time well back in the day.  And then as the kids got older and I was working, there was NO free time.  Especially with Cahuna gone so much.   And then the flood hit and that pretty much took over a year of my life.   A year and a bit.  I'm still dealing with the tail end of insurance and some government assistance.   But I DO have my house back now.  No workmen coming and going anymore.  I don't have a job ( YES!! fist pumped twice there) My older kids have mostly flown the coop.  My husband is back out of town and it's just me and my youngest and she's a busy kid.  So....here are some of the things I always fantasized about doing:

    -Going for big long walks with a big friendly dog ( check)

    -exercising regularly (check)

    - taking a yoga class ( check)

    - trying a Bible Study out ( check)

    - paying attention to current events ( check)

    - reading regularly ( check)

    - pottery or ceramic type crafts ( have scoped out location)

    - learning to make those quick rag quilts ( still need to buy a sewing machine but I will)

    - cooking food that I WANT to eat, not rushing cuz I have to have someone out the door in five minutes.  Food that doesn't involve noodles, soup and a meat.  ( working on this with Pintrest's help)

    - learning to crochet ( check)

    - dog obedience classes ( today I will call...I have a number)

    -watching a movie in the middle of the afternoon ( soon)

    - naps ( check)

    This is what I used to fantasize about and now it's happening.  I am pretty darn excited about this.

    I just burped nachos.   Maybe having them first thing in the morning wasn't the best idea.  Especially before I go for a run.   I'll pop an antacid just in case.  Sometimes my stupidity and lack of foresight astounds even me.

    Have a good day!

  • Wow....

    Last night something happened that I THOUGHT was a ways off yet.   Last night our oldest daughter's boyfriend drove down to our house at 9pm and asked Cahuna and myself if he had our permission/blessing to marry our oldest daughter.

    HOLY SHIT!!

    We're there? Already?  (nice that he asked btw - sweet and old fashioned and well....he scored points)  I can't believe my oldest is old enough to get married.  Jeepers where did time go????  I think I spent half the kids younger years wishing them older and now I want to put on the brakes!

    About boyfriend coming down...we've known for a while that they were talking about getting married next spring and so it wasn't a huge surprise.  They aren't engaged yet and so we've been sworn to secrecy.   But I'm a blabbermouth and so here I am back blabbing on Xanga.    I'm excited about the wedding, but mostly this shocked me with how quickly the years have flown by.

    I'm not going to get over this quickly so you're now forewarned that this might be an ongoing thing for a while.

    My poor Bernese Mountain Dog got neutered today.  Neutered and he had a little hernia fixed.   But because he's a licker he's wearing a cone.   The cone of shame.  And poor guy is bonking into walls, tables, falling down stairs....it's like he's completely hammered.   But he keeps giving me a look with his sad sad puppy dog eyes that says 'why you do this to me?' .   Sorry man, I really am:(

    Cahuna is finally back up north working.  It's a very good thing.  I'm so used to him being away that having had him home so much over the past 9 months just about did me in.   I kept fantasizing about having my clean, tidy,  uncluttered, nice smelling home back.  Cahuna's a hoarder and a bit of a pig.   When he's up north he has someone make his bed, clean his room, his bathroom, make his food, do his dishes etc.  He may even have someone wipe his ass....I'm not sure.  So when he's home, he forgets that I never graduated from MAID school and continues to act like he has his own personal cleaning crew.  That combined with his hoarding does not a good room mate make.

    This poor dog.  Whack.  Whomp.  Smack.  Bonk.

    A wedding.  Wow.  lol  c-r-a-z-y.  She'll be a nurse, he'll be a welder/fireman.  They should be fine and have a nice long happy marriage.  I could be a grandma in a few years! lol I am looking FORWARD to that.  I like kids.  I like the idea of spending time playing with them but not HAVING them 24/7.  Kind of like a husband.  I like the idea of having one around, just not 24/7.

    I feel like I'm coming out of a very long fog.   Not just from the past year, but one that was a long time in the making.  Maybe it's cuz I finally have time to think and rest and enjoy life.  Not sure.  I feel better about things though.  Better than I've felt in years.  Many many years.  I wouldn't say I was depressed.  More....exhausted.  Spent.  Overwhelmed.  I'm feeling less like that lately.

    We'll see how this wedding goes:) hopefully it's not a gong show.  I may have spoken too soon about feeling less overwhelmed lol

September 27, 2013

  • thankful....

    I am thankful.

    Thankful for my insurance - though I bitch and complain, I have more than many.

    Thankful for my kids - though you drive me somewhat batty, my life is moot without you.

    Thankful for my friends - we drink, we ignore, we complain, we love,  I love you.

    Thankful for my family - you rock.  My strength when nothing is left  My heritage. My soul.

    Thankful for my dog and cat - Je t'adores.   Charlie, you are my sidekick and silent bestest bud.  Kat, you drive me nuts, but when I thought I lost you I was devestated.  I love you Kat to the point that I ignore my allergies and spend some evenings bonding with you and then wishing I hadn't because my red swollen eyes feel like sand paper was shaved across them.  Kat I hate/love you.

    Thankful for my furnace - the wheel has nothing on you my friend when it comes to 'modern' inventions.  Anyone living north of the 49th parallel will agree.

    Thankful for my bed.

    Night:)

September 26, 2013

  • Looking Ahead:)

    Today I realized that I've lost all the kids school photos.  Kindergarten through grade 12.  Class pictures, individual shots, all gone.  I realized it because Spud came home today with her 'proofs'.  You know, the ones where you feel obligated to pick the least worst of all the awful shots of your child.  Honestly, school photos are great for looking back and laughing, but that's about it.  I think they became popular back when I was young and parents weren't snapping millions of shots of their precious children every year.  Maybe that's just me taking all those pictures?  The point is, do we need school pictures still?

    Well, now that I've lost 36 of them ( all for my oldest two and 10 for my youngest) I can tell you that YES, school photos are important.

    I wondered about ordering her next 3 years of school.  I mean the point kind of is to have the entire collection right?  Kindergarten through grade 12.  Is grade 10 through grade 12 any fun? Not really.  Still, she wants to be able to hand some out to her friends, so we'll come up with something.

    The other thing I realized we lost were yearbooks.  I'd bought each girl a yearbook for every year they were in school.  I also lost 7 of mine and 7 of Cahuna's.

    To be honest, I'm more annoyed at the money I kicked out that is now gone than the loss of the yearbooks themselves.

    So Knickers lesson of the day is that school pictures are important, and yearbooks not so much.

    I booked flights to LA on Nov 8.  Spud's mother/daughter trip is going to be a 'mother/daughter/father' trip as Cahuna will be joining us for half of it.  More than anything else in the whole entire world, Spud wants to get to the premiere of Catching Fire.

    She is a Hungerhead, Fangirl, groupie extraordinaire.

    She has entered every contest where Canadians are eligable.  We wrote Ellen.  We're contacting Lionsgate.  Anyway, I've tried to talk some sense into her and have explicitly told her that 'the odds are not in her favor ' ( hehh get it??) but she still wants to at least go to where this premiere is and try to at least see her favorite stars.  She says she's prepared for the back of their heads even.

    I have mixed emotions.  I mean really, this could be a huge huge disappointment for her right?  And is it healthy to encourage this kind of idolism?  NO.  But then I think, oh what the F*** and I wish my parents would have let me do something like this for my 'dream vacation'.  So there you have it.

    On the bright side, we're going to be spending quite a while down there ( cheaper than St Lucia for sure) and will do the theme parks, some shopping and have a nice relaxing time.  We're also really really really hoping to get tickets to Ellen while we're there but they aren't available yet.  But wish us luck:)

    We'll leave Friday evening and Cahuna will join us late Tues night.  Then we will all fly home early the following Tues morning.

    I'm excited:)  We need something to look forward to and hopefully this isn't a flop.  I don't think it can be with all the extras we'll be doing.   Cahuna's hilarious at Disneyland - he gets so excited:)  And I want to go back to SeaWorld.  I haven't been there in ages and I LOVE it.  LOVE it.  And we're going to do the VIP tour at Universal.  Ya:) it'll be fun:) fun:) fun:).

    It might snow tonight! There's a rumor of rain, possibly flurries over night:)  I hope so - I love the snow:) I'm so glad we have a furnace!!

    night:)

September 19, 2013

September 14, 2013

  • Imagine

    Imagine it's just another normal day.  You get up, get ready for work.  It's spring.  It's rainy.  That's ok.  June is almost over and you've got the summer off and boy is it going to be a great summer!  You have a last family vacation planned as your older kids more than likely won't be able to join you for many more.  The boat is ready for summer.  One of your kids is graduating...plans are being made.  It's going to be a great summer and a little rain can't get you down.

    Imagine you are eating breakfast and purusing facebook like you normally do.  You like to pretend you don't, but you do.  Get that free spin on Bewjeweled, see what's new with your friends.  You see that the town has declared a state of ememrgency again.  Stupid river, when are they going to do something about that?  As you head off to work, you softly wake your snoozing teens and suggest they go help sandbag again.  After all, it is that time of year.  They mumble that they'll go help later.

    Imagine you get to work and you and your co worker chuckle about the rain.  You start up the computer, listen to messages, look at the mail.  At about 9 15 you get a text from your daughter saying that her Dr's appointment had to be postponed as the road her doctor lives on is flooded out and she is unable to make it to town.  Hmmm...must be raining harder than you thought.

    9 30 another text comes from your daughter and she tells you that she's walking a couple of blocks from your office, and the river has breached the banks and is now slowly creeping into downtown.  She tells you they're talking about evacuating downtown.  You tell your co worker and the two of you debate it and decide that must be a joke.   To evacuate downtown is unheard of!  But you decide that maybe you should go check out the situation anyway.

    The two of you lock up the office, get into your little VW car and start to cruise up the street towards this rumored breach of the river.  But halfway down the street, you realize it's not a rumor.  There really IS dirty, muddy water filling the gutters, causing large puddles.  Is it actually coming down the street?  It's hard to tell.

     You go back to the office and she calls her husband who is working about 45 minutes away and suggests he come home in case there is a problem at home.  You  wonder if the water will come as far as your office.  Probably not.  You  decide to err on the side of caution and the two of you put some electronics and  file boxes up on the desk. You look outside and the water most definietly is coming down the street.  You  decide to lock up and double check that things are ok in your part of town, although you're fairly confident they are.

    You're surprised at how far the water has managed to snake its way through the streets.  At home you sit and think about how quickly the water has moved and wonder if maybe you should take this flooding matter more seriously.   You get two of your kids, you opt to take the truck with 4 wheel drive ( just in case) and go back downtown to put more effort into getting things off the ground at the office.   It's not quite 10 am.

    Downtown is quiet.  A few lone vehicles are still parked along the streets.  The water is still creeping along, not quite at a visible pace until you mark it.  Then you can see the current.    You get to your office and are fairly confident the water will not make it this far.  You're a good couple of blocks from the overflow.  You unlock the office and you and your kids unplug every electronic cord you can find.  You put up everything you possibly can.  You move quickly.  You look out the street and still don't see any water.  It's about 10 10 am.  It's going to be funny tomorrow when you go back to work and have to explain to your boss why everything is up on the desks.  He'll probably laugh at how paranoid you acted.

    You think about the water you saw flooding down the street a couple of blocks up and you ask the kids if they want to see history.  They don't but you push them to walk up the street with you.  After all, it's not everyday something like this happens.

    You walk up the mostly deserted streets and marvel at the brown dirty water slowly creeping along.  Some stranded cars look like they might have to be written off.  It's hard to tell if the water IS still flooding.  It probably isn't.  You think about your co worker who lives near the river and you decide you should go help her out.  You get the kids in the truck and drive two blocks where you see a police barricade.  The police aren't letting anyone into that area.  They are only allowing people to leave.  There must be more flooding than you realized.  10 30 and it's time to head home.

    There are a lot of vehicles trying to leave the same area as you.  Rush hour traffic in your small town.  It's kind of funny.  You tell the kids that this is something they won't see every day and you encourage them to take pictures or video.  They roll their eyes and take a few for you.

    Your 7 minute drive home turns into a 45 minute trip.  You feel like you're in a movie where all of NYC is fleeing and the traffic is at a standstill.  You can't go anywhere but wait in the line.   You drive  by the hospital and the water seems to be creeping up to the building itself.  The streets there have water in them.  That's odd.  You notice more and more stalled vehicles.  Thank  goodness you drove the big truck.

    When you get home you turn on your computer.  You're surprised at the magnitude of the flooding.  You think about the office.  It should be ok.  Even if it gets a few inches of water, it should be OK.  Two of your kids are enjoying the day home and settle in for an old Disney Movie Marathon.

    You feel badly for the people who are being evacuated in the downtown area.  You try to text your co worker, your husband, your other child, your friends to see if they are all right, but only some of the texts make it through.  Later you find out that the local cell providers were unable to handle the magnitude of usage that day.

    You think about your real estate agent who sold you your home 3 years earlier.  Thank goodness she would only allow you to buy in certain areas of town.  You think about your safe home and you know you need to help whoever you can.  A friend reaches out.  She was grooming some dogs in her home when a siren went off and she was told to evacuate immediately as a flash flood crashed down her street.  They come to your house with their dogs, kids and nothing else.  They had NO time to pack or save anything.  Your heart breaks for them.  You start to plan long term.  You think about the extra bedding you have and know that somehow you will help them out.

    You realize you will need a bit more food so you make a quick trip to the nearest grocery store.  It is packed.  It is sold out of water.  You mentally say a quick thank  you to your mom who always keeps extra water around in case of emergencies, and you decided to follow suit.  Go mom.  You buy some provisions to settle in for a few days.

    Your 18 year old comes home with horror stories of the flooding downtown.  She tells you how in the middle of sandbagging, someone yelled to look out and a wave of water came flooding through an old dried up creek bed.  It scared her adventurous soul enough to send her away from that part of town.  You are thankful.  She tells you that she and her boyfriend need to go help whoever they can.  You understand.

    At this point you are glued to the computer.  Updates on Facebook are breaking your heart.  Families are saying they've lost everything.  You want to go look, but you know for everyone's sake you're best off at home.  You try calling your husband who works out of town.  Still limited cell service and you have no luck.  You sit and wait and watch.

    At 4 00 your daughter comes home with rumors of the entire town being evacuated.  You chuckle because you KNOW that is overkill.  You don't live anywhere near the river.  Why would they evacuate you?? Unless it was because the sewer might back up?  You decide to wait until  you hear something more definite.

    Your friend tells you she is taking her family and heading up to Calgary to stay with a friend for a few days.  You understand.  After all, you yourself might have to leave town for a night as well...although you will have a home to come back to.  You feel guilty for feeling lucky.

    You sit down and glue yourself to the comptuer in hopes of finding out more.  Rumors.  Sad stories.  Nothing official.  What is going on??? You don't know.

    You think about the possibility of being evacuated.  It seems ridiculous and paranoid.  You think about the trip you have planned and the upcoming graduation ceremonies.  You go and talk to your other two daughters about the rumor.  The three of you decide to pack some things that are valuable, just in case it's not a rumor.

    You call your mom and tell her what's going on.  She tells you that you are more than welcome to stay with her.  You laugh and tell her thank you but probably you won't need to take her up on that but thank you anyway.

    You go tell your neighbor the rumor.  You tell her you have decided to pack a few things yourself and worse case scenerio you unpack them the next morning.

    You grab a suitcase.  You think about all the scenerios where you had imagined what you would grab if your house was on fire.  That is silly of course beause your house is absolutely not on fire and really you may only have to leave for a day.  IF you even have to leave.   You think how annoyed you're going to be when you unpack everything tomorrow.  You grab a couple of external hard drives.  What the heck, some photo albums.  You feel silly.  While you're on this roll, you grab your daughters grad dress, your wedding dress, the dress you planned to wear to the graduation ceremonies.  It seems absurd.

    You go downstairs and your daughter is packing a back pack.  You go back upstairs and your other daughter is packing a suitcase.  You are frustrated and yell at them that they are NOT packing for a vacation.  They just need the basics.  They don't listen.  It's a good thing.

    The three of you discuss moving items from your basement upstairs.   That seems so ridiculous.  Why would you go to all that work when you know you are not going to flood.  Then you wonder about sewer back up.  The three of you put gaming systems up on the couch, some electronics up on the beds, move some art work.  You think about your husband, what would he want moved if he were there.  You move some of his old pictures upstairs.  You move his guns upstairs.  You look around...you still feel silly.

    Your daughter and her boyfriend come home and tell you that the entire town IS being evacuated.  You don't believe it, but your daughter is generally not one to exaggerate.  You go and tell your neighbor.  She is already packed and on her way out of town.  You talk to some other neighbors and they scoff at the idea of being evacuated.  One well educated man tells you that even if you are evacuated, there is no chance of flooding in your neighborhood.  You want to believe him.  You really do but your spidey senses are tingling and you are unsure.

    Two men in official looking suits come to your door.  They tell you there is an evacutaion order in effect.  You ask them what happens if you don't evacuate.  They tell you that you will then have to deal with the military.  You tell them you're on your way.

    You call your mom.  She says come on up.  Thankful.

    You and your kids think about the basement.  What is the worse that could happen??? You might get a couple of inches of sewer water.  You've closed all the doors.  You've picked everything up.  You moved somethings up stairs. You've packed what you believe to be irreplaceable.  You should be fine.

    You park one vehicle in the safety of your garage.  You park another on the driveway, up off the street.  Just in case.  Your daughters and her boyfriend are hitching up the family boat to the truck.  Your neighbors chuckle at the sillyness of that.  Everyone knows boats float.

    For some reason you grab your small metal lock box.  The one with your passports, SIN cards, birth certificates.  While you're being paranoid, you may as well go all the way.  You think about the cat.  She should be safe over night.  You bring her litter box upstairs, top up her food and water and head out.

    You help your daughter and boyfriend put sandbags around your garage and window wells.  Boy, those neighbors really think you're bonkers.

    And off you go.

    It's another mass exodous out of town.  You and your kids crack jokes about it being the apocolypse.  As you are driving north on the highway, you are alarmed at the amount of water in the fields surrounding your town.  It's irionic, because at this point it's bright and sunny.  You cross the river and see the full power of mother nature.  You are scared driving across the bridge, but you have no choice.

    And on you go.

    You get to your moms.  It's late.  The day was emotionally draining. You're exhausted.  You're so thankful to be at your moms.

    Imagine waking up the next morning and the news is full of coverage of the devestation from the flooding.  You are shocked.  You see roads washed out.   You see houses floating down rivers.  You see an entire downtown core destroyed by water.  You see landmarks submerged.  And then you see aerial footage of your town.  You are shocked to see water everywhere.  The entire town appears to be under a few feet of water.  You wish they would show your area.  All the water.  It's so awful looking.  Landmarks aren't making sense with the water covering so much.  You aren't sure what you're looking at exactly but it looks like entire neighbourhoods submerged.

    And then the realization hits you.

    That's your neighbourhood.  That's your street.  That's your house.

    Imagine that...

September 13, 2013

  • I have no idea where my old archived entries are...have you all found yours?

    I'm just so happy to be able to blog again....oh yes I am.  My healing healthy ranting blogs....:)

    be back soon when I have more time

    AH HA!!! Found them !! yayy:)

August 2, 2013

  • :(

    Things are NOT going well.  

    I wonder if Xanga will even be around long enough for this story to end.

    My life is upside down.  Financially we're tanked.  Emotionally bankrupt.  

    I've been living at my moms with NO WiFi ( I know, right????) and her internet pages took up to 30 seconds to load.  So, that's why I've been AWOL. 

    We have a main floor, but imagine a bomb going off and destroying everything below.....that's kind of what happened.  We lived in a bungelow and for a family of 5, that's not a lot of space.  We used our basement well.  Everything is gone.  

    We live in a seasonal climate - 4 full seasons.   So now all our winter clothes ( ski coats, dress coats, boots, clothing) are gone.  Forget two full bedrooms and furniture.   Art supplies.  A family room with 4 gaming systems ( we had a litter of teens...what can I say?) All our games.  Keyboard.  Christmas decorations.  Wine making supplies. All gone.  A rough estimate was over 65K for contents.  Sleeping bags. Winter bedding. Diving gear blah blah blah....

     I feel like a bit of an ass-wipe complaining.  At least I'm home.  A lot of people I know own very expenisive, yet worth nothing, black mold infested dwellings.  Then there's that other factoid...the one about us being in the top 95% wealthiest people in the world...so really I should shut my fat mouth. 

    It's a huge blow.  Not sure what insurance or disaster relief will cover.  My entire town looks like...um...hmmm...Bosnia comes to mind.  It's awful.  And i'm a sucker for nature/beauty etc....so this drab, unhappy, brown shitty ( no lie there) mess is really depressing.  I went out to the mountains a few times and felt ultimate bliss:)  Me and those mountains have a love affair going on:)

    I'm going to quit my job.  There's no way I can handle my Peckerhead boss come September. NO way.  I'm going to talk to my co worker first...let her tear a few strips off me for quitting and then I'll go talk to dickhead.  He shouldn't have any trouble replacing me...as long as he fishes in a pool that has never heard of him. Half my town is unemployed right now. Jobs are in demand.  Who knows? maybe he'll luck out and find someone who can handle him like I did.  I'm bragging because I was an all time record of employement for him at 2 years.  

    Jess gets home from Peru on Tues.  Sam gets home from BC Mon and is heading to Taiwan within the next few weeks - we don't know dates and I can't really talk about it without welling up.  Jordo is coming home from camp for the long weekend and then goes back on Monday evening.  Life is busy.  I'm so thankful my kids are busy. 

    Not sure what all is going on with Xanga??? Bueller?? Bueller? anyone??? :)  

     

     

August 1, 2013

  • helloo??? uh....are we still on the air? lol

     

January 20, 2009

  • did you know a gorilla can bench press up to 4000 lbs?  or that pigeons have 3 sets of eyelids?  hmmmweird.  Curtesy of the Bathroom Reader